Little Lifeboat

Things deepened in the polycule over the past week, I fell into a thing with E & M put me on their “pebble list” – these things happened within 30 minutes of each other, independently, which was quite interesting. M and I hung out and played games last night, then we shared about our hometowns and did a Google Earth tour of CO.

The group got into a highly energetic and spiritual place the other night, it was quite interesting and I haven’t felt something like that for years, it’s also quite exhausting and I slept nearly 10 hours last night, which is unusual as I average around 6 1/2 hours.

Love without expectation is a big topic for me lately and I’m working to deconstruct my escalators and reconciling expectation and allowing things to be & people meeting me where they are and not where they “should” be.

Also balancing that with if genuine needs aren’t being met vs. what society has told us what things should look like, and for me, by specific timeframes.

There’s also some reconciliation/growth going on lately as I work on emotional compartmentalization between relationships and context switching.

However, it was just a month ago that KC and I were practically mono day to day then all of a sudden POLYCULE! And I love it so much, and this has been what I wanted for nearly six years now, but it’s important to continually remind myself that rest is important, too.

All good things. I’ll continue grounding myself this week.